Im depressed and alone?

Im almost 9 months pregnant and very depresed, my husband keeps fighting because I forget to do things in the house and he pays all the bills, I suffer from a disorder that when I get really sad or mad I faint, It happened this morning and he thinks Its my fault, he doest care if I cry because he thinks it wont hurt the baby. He doesnt hit me but his words hurt more, he calls me names and tells me Im ugly and fat and not a woman and that I ruined his life. I dont know what to do anymore I cry everyday sometimes he makes me whish i was dead, i dont have any friends to talk to and I feel so lonely.I found him on a chat room online talking to girls, The next day he acts like nothing happened and expects me to be happy without even apologizing to me. Other times he is good and makes me happy but this hurts so much because I dont forget things, He says I have mental problems and im retared, he says it so much Im staring to believe him